Expectations vs Surrender

It is so amazing to learn how little control I really have.

God has been teaching me so much about reliance. I have never been here before; I am vulnerable, open. My only certainty is found in prayer.
But newsflash- to pray is to surrender, not to demand. It does not give us grounds to expect anything from Him.

“But I prayed for this…with hope and pure intentions!”

How dare I hold God accountable. Step down, self.
“no” is still an answer. He does not have to say “yes” to prove Himself faithful.
I cannot deserve an answered prayer. If He gives me the desire of my heart, it is because He is merciful and gracious. Not because I prayed for it, and CERTAINLY not because I earned it.

Hello, reliance. We meet again.

Control= 0%.
100% room for faith.

God- It is not about what you are going to do, but what you are doing now. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for showing me how little I am. Please keep doing it. (Please show me mercy. My heart is on a platter.)

Em