Friends Spotlight
Have you ever had someone in your life who felt like an absolute gift from God? Someone who made you feel important like no one else could? My friend, Angie, was such a person. With just a few words, she made me feel like she'd been waiting all day just to talk to me. I just loved that. She had a way about her that made me feel immediately included in whatever she was doing or talking about. We both had four children and sons the same age who were often at one house or the other. Angie and I used to laugh that our boys were all just a part of the other's family. We couldn't even tell there was an extra child or two there, they just blended right in with the rest. Angie was also a homeschooling mom, just like me. We would often call each other lamenting about our struggles of the day or getting advice, ("What worked for you today?" or "How do you deal with this?") and more than once, cried on each other's shoulders. She was a gift from God. She was my very best friend. And this weekend it will be two years since she was killed in a car accident.
Many times since that day I have asked God why He allowed it. Why take someone who was so much to so many - someone who was instrumental in raising her children in a Christian home, who was reaching unwed mothers with the gospel, who was a light to an unsaved father and sister, constantly reaching out to them with the Good News of Christ? Why, why, why? And God has not chosen to reveal His mysterious ways to me. All He asks me to do is to trust Him, to know that His way is perfect, and to realize that He really does know what He is doing, whether I understand or not.
Many times since that day I have asked God why He allowed it. Why take someone who was so much to so many - someone who was instrumental in raising her children in a Christian home, who was reaching unwed mothers with the gospel, who was a light to an unsaved father and sister, constantly reaching out to them with the Good News of Christ? Why, why, why? And God has not chosen to reveal His mysterious ways to me. All He asks me to do is to trust Him, to know that His way is perfect, and to realize that He really does know what He is doing, whether I understand or not.
He says in Isaiah that His ways are not my ways, and my thoughts are not His thoughts. Therefore, I do not see things with His knowledge. His knowledge encompasses eternity past and future. My knowledge is only of the past 45 years. He sees the hearts of all people and knows what goes on in them. I see only what the people immediately around me say and do. Reminding myself of these things helps me to remember that He truly is the only One who is capable of "running the show." In my finite wisdom, I might wish to do things differently but the end result would definitely be lacking in perfection. In fact, I'm quite sure it would be a big mess. I can't possibly see all things like He does. His plan is being fulfilled and His final outcome will be perfect.
I don't claim to have the ultimate word on grief or exactly why things happen as they do. I know for a fact that there are people reading this who have experienced even greater tragedies than I have.
I don't claim to have the ultimate word on grief or exactly why things happen as they do. I know for a fact that there are people reading this who have experienced even greater tragedies than I have.
But I do know that God alone is in control and that I am to walk on a daily basis with Him, trusting as I go.
Janine
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